They teach you this new way by doing. It would be sort of like teaching a soldier to fight by parachuting him behind enemy lines. If he survives, he has learned well. Obviously, there are drawbacks to this teaching method. This is especially the case if you, like me, enter law school expecting it to be like college. Misunderstanding the law school process breeds confusion, insecurity and fear.
In my own case, it was only after my second bar exam that I began to realize all of this. In practice, I could see that this "sink or swim" process honed one's legal skills in a very effective and efficient manner.
My distance from the process provided me with perspective. As a result, I wrote "Law School Labyrinth- The Guide to Making the Most of Your Legal Education" (Kaplan/ Simon and Schuster, 2d Ed. 2011)
My Christian process was similar. I had certain expectations about Christian life, based upon what I had read and heard. I thought that once I accepted Christ as my savior, I would stop sinning. I believed that all Christians lead happy, sinless and carefree lives. I misunderstood the Christian process, which led to years of confusion, insecurity and fear.
Eventually, I reached the end of my spiritual rope. I realized that whatever I believed, it wasn't working for me. One night, in complete desparation, I reached out to God. I asked Him to forgive me. I asked Him to take over.
And then, every single day, I gave my life to Him. I began to understand what it means to trust in Jesus. I also studied the Bible. I had previously read the Bible in snippets because that was what I saw other Christians doing. My legal education helped me to understand that any document can be understood, if you invest enough time in reading it. I read the Bible like I read any legal document- carefully, with precision and making sure that I understood every word.
Over time, I began to understand God's plan, as it is described in the Bible. Christianity began to make sense to me. The jargon and buzzwords all melted away and I was left with truth. Because I had not grown up in church and because I wasn't so caught up in the spiritual trees, I was able to begin to understand the spiritual forest.
And that's why I wrote "The Reasonable Person- Due Process of Law, Logic, and Faith" (Createspace, June 2012). My distance from the Christian process provided me with perspective. I share this perspective in my book- I cut through the jargon and buzzwords; I explain Christianity in a logical way, based upon scripture. When you read the Bible in its entirety, the story becomes crystal clear. It makes incredibly good sense. The myths, misconceptions and popular culture biases agains Christian faith dissolve.
If you are searching, or if you are a Christian struggling with your faith, this book will help you. It provides a roadmap to Christian faith. I use a legal writing style, in that every major assertion is footnoted and supported with scripture. You can look these up for yourself. You can come to your own conclusions.
Since publishing the book, the response has been interesting. To some extent, there hasn't been a lot of interest from "mainstream" Christianity. Perhaps it's because I don't really have a "platform," which is publishingspeak for a literary following. My following, if any, are struggling and prospective law students. "The Law School Labyrinth" was written to help them. I suppose there are law students struggling with their faith as well. I hope "The Reasonable Person" will help them. But obviously, "The Reasonable Person" wa intended for a much broader audience.
At the same time, every time I pick up the book and read a bit, I am amazed. I'm a lawyer, not a theologian. I believe that the vast majority of "The Reasonable Person" came from somewhere other than my corrupted little brain. To use Christianspeak, I believe it was influenced by the Holy Spirit. Another way of saying it: I believe God wanted me to tell this story. And I believe that He had an intended audience. Eventually, that audience will find this book.
From that, I take great comfort and satisfaction. To be use by God for anything is an incredible opportunity. Then again, I believe He provides Christians with those opportunities daily, if we are willing to take advantage of them. It might be a simple random act of kindness to a stranger, or it might be a book.
Either way, I'm thankful. And I hope and pray that I will take advantage of all of these opportunties, every day, large and small.
If you read "The Reasonable Person," I hope that it helps you find God.